Wow- it's December! How the time is flying!! Being a mom-to-be is stretching my mindful muscles as I love the now, but feel anxious to plan for what is to come!
Our little bear is due in March, but today we went to visit and tour our second day care center. We don't even need child care until she will be 5-6 months old. So why are we visiting day cares now, you might ask? No, we're not crazy, we're not control freaks, and we're not even really big planners.
We are not trying to get our little baby girl into some fancy private school yet either- but if we wait any longer we might get stuck without childcare. In fact, I'm a little concerned this still might happen to us if the waitlists stay full. The waitlists for day care centers in the bay area are unimaginable. Some, around a year. So today when we put down a (non-refundable) deposit, we were told that there are around 30 families on the waitlist and that September is probably when they will start having openings.
This is just one of the major things we are having to start planning for now- and it's challenging. I'm trying so hard to stay present and mindful, but I am finding it difficult.
Additionally and related to the daycare planning, my mind has been drifting often to our next move. Probably not a big move like others we have done in the past (NYC to LA, LA to Chicago, and Chicago to our current home in the Bay)- but a move nonetheless, which is a lot of work even without a baby. Our current lease is up in August, and while we love this place- the location, the comfort, the room, there are several reasons why we probably will not sign another lease.
Our rent is insane- but let's be honest, prices almost anywhere in the Bay Area are outrageous. Do we continue to pay these sky-rocket rent prices and feel like our money is going down the drain? Do we downsize a bit to try and save up more money (but continue to spend money on rent rather than invest in property). Or, do we bite the bullet and put all of our savings into a teenie tiny home here in the Bay Area, where the prices are at an all time high? Can we even afford a down payment, a mortgage and taxes on a little house if we want to? Maybe we should just get the heck out of here and move to Texas- okay I don't really mean that- but the idea of a nice home of our own for "cheap" compared to California is sometimes tempting. I don't have answers to any of these questions, but they just seem to consume my brain lately.
It doesn't help that our lease is up in August, which is right about when Kevin will be heading back to work after his paternity leave. As much as I want to stay in the moment, I know its important to begin the planning, so I need to work on a good balance. I do know in my heart it will all work out exactly as it has supposed to. Our life is so blessed and I am so grateful for the mere fact that we have so many options.
Here I am now, after this long stream of consciousness coming back to my center. My blessings. What I know to be true & what I know to be thankful for:
- we have eachother
- we have a loving and supportive family
- we have a warm cozy home
- we have well-paying jobs, with benefits and paid maternity and paternity leave (4 months!)
- we have adventures, opportunities and memories
- we have nutritious food and the ability to enjoy it
- we have joy and laughter
- we have our health
- we have time to figure it all out
- we have everything we need & more
Plus, we have baby kicks and baby hiccups to keep us focused on these wonderful moments that make up our wonderful life! Just watch her wiggle: