The world is a crazy place lately.
Forest Fires out West
Earthquake in Mexico
Mass shooting in Las Vegas
...and, yes, I am very well aware that the list above are just the terrible happenings from my personal westernized, American, liberal, white, privileged point of view. These are all the things that have lately stood out to me personally - they have felt too close to home, shaken me a bit awake.
This morning reading of the shooting in news headlines on my phone felt especially jarring. I had several friends visiting Las Vegas this weekend (all safe thank goodness) and my husband is travelling there in 2 weeks. It immediately struck fear into my heart. I was afraid for my friends, my family and myself- we could be anywhere and could get shot or killed in some horrible random terrorist act, or by some mentally ill person with a gun. Or in a car accident or plane crash...if you let your mind get going there, the list could go on and on.
I could live my life in fear- we all could. Especially us mamas- how easy it is to worry and be fearful for our little babes. But I know that life is not about that. Life is meant to be lived from love, for love- only love.
So what to do. Again, as always, come back to my center. What is important in life- what matters and who matters. Focus on the present moment, be grateful and dwell only in love. I feel like I've been here before. I've told myself this and I remind myself this again and again overtime. Why does it feel like it doesn't always stick or that I fall away from it? I let things pull me away from my center when all I want to do is stay there.
But at this moment in my life it all feels deeper and I think it's because I'm a mom of a precious little girl. Analise hasn't yet been hardened by the world of today or the negative energy that is out there - and I want to help guide her to stay in love. And I know in order to help her best I need to serve as a good example.
Being that I am currently a stay at home mom, with a husband who travels Monday-Thursday for work, I don't have a ton of adult interaction throughout my day. So sometimes, I admit, I turn to social media to fill that void. Thankfully, on Instagram especially, I follow only positive influencers- lots of mamas, yogis and just really wonderful people - hoping to build upon the power of love and intention. Today I found some real gems that stood out and are helping point me in the right direction. I share them here in the hopes I grow from them, and that anyone reading my blog may also find peace, hope and a love-filled way forward.
Do not be dismayed from the brokenness of the world. All things break. And all things can be mended. Not with time, as they say, but with intention. So go. Love intentionally, extravagantly, unconditionally. The broken world awaits in darkness for the light that is you. (L.R. Knost, shared by Ferny Barceló. Find her on IG at FernyATX)
"...pause in the pain. Let it seep in. Let it break your heart until you feel deeper than you ever have before. Let it crack you open until you find the quiet place inside where compassion lives... Let it shake you to make room for those who repel you so that you start to close divides. Let it startle you from your righteousness and judgement and separatist views. Let it make room for LOVE..." (written and shared by jana_roemer)
So this afternoon after I let this all sink in I thought, what can I do to love and enjoy this day? What can I do to show Analise love and joy and hope. So we went to the park. And she went in the swing. And smiled.
Find me and my journey to my center on IG at meditated.mama